Four Walls and Adobe Slabs

I'm going to make things like this today for my room:

Reoccurring Thoughts

-This would taste better with salt.

-It's all in your head, no one else is thinking that about you.

-I want to do more drugs.

-I remember thinking the kids on the real world were a lot more ~wild when I little.

-FFFFFFF Why did I eat that?

-Is attaching my picture on the craigslist waitressing ads I answer "just to put a face to a name" desperate? Yes, yes it is.

-My mouth hurts bad.

-I'm drowning and flailing in this town.

-I like sunlight in meadows. Let's have a picnic in one. DONE.

-What if it isn't better in a month?

-Oh boy less than one month!

-Ikea is going to be a headache/ shit show.

-I like a lot people, but I never know what they're thinking.

-FFFFF why did I think going to a mall would cheer me up?

-This list makes me look like a glass half empty kind of gal. FALSE Y'ALL. The internet brings it out in me.

-I've been having good days, think we are the right age to start out own peculiar ways doo doo do do do do.

-I'm never cutting my hair again. 1 min later: Shoot, why did I just cut off that inch?

-This is the worst weather I've ever seen in a summer. Ever.

-I want a puppy.

-My job has no point. Also: I wonder if people judge me for eating a single chip, an orange slice and a cherry in rotation. Once every hour.

-Be brave.

-All I want is a room up there and you in it.

-So this rage is irrational and general.

-The theme of all my writing is "longing." Wait, no that's the theme of my life.

-I want "TMTH" tattooed on my inner lip.

-My back hurts.

-I hope people think I'm funny. It's not my fault I friends with hilarious people and can't compete.

-Oh no she's laughing TOO hard, I'm panicking.

-I have a lot things I want to do this autumn in Boston. Everything will feel new even if it's not.

-How do people survive the ending of things? I know I will have to eventually.

-I should go to sleep.

This world has a warm, sunny heart.

"I miss you already. I missed you even when I was with you. That's been my problem. I miss what I already have, and I surround myself with things that are missing."

-Jonathan Safran Foer

Things I Want This Fall:

-Oxford shoes (and an Oxford shirt. I'm so nerdy?!?!):

-Magical princess hair:

-A black winter coat with a military collar

-Jeans that actually fit me

-A beanie hat

-Whatever I can afford to look like belong I in an Anthropologie catalogue.

Randomness:

Golden-Pony Boy!

BRB VOMZ EVERYWHERE:

It's probably the fur that anoretics get due to starvation and their body trying to stay warm. I watched part of the Top Chef with her on and she's a vegan who also doesn't eat gluten or soy...which leaves her with fruits, veggies, and...nuts?

all i eat is special k, lean cuisines and butter. idk which of those three is making me OBESE. 

"I don't know. Poets are always taking the weather so personally. They're always sticking their emotions in things that have no emotions" -Salinger, Nine Stories

Music: I recently went to a free concert and saw Ra Ra Riot, Passion Pit and Metric. I now really need to buy Ra Ra Riot's album. To do that I have to go the the "genius bar" and fix my itunes. I'd rather gargle anti-freeze. Metric's set was wonderful because they went acoustic so it sounded much more like Emily Haines' solo project, Emily Haines and the Soft Skeleton. 

I also need Deerhunter's new CD, and his side project, Atlas Sound. This song, Walkabout, features Panda Bear.

Books: I read a large part of Eugenides' collection of love stories. It has so many great names in it and I would love to own a copy. I liked Jon by George Saunders the best.

I also read Self-Help by Loorie Moore and adored it.

Now I am reading The Yellow House by Martin Gayford. It is about the last year of Vincent van Gogh's life in southern France when he lived with Paul Gauguin. I took a contemporary art course and I think my teacher read this exact book. I am still waiting to read about when Vincent would jump all over Paul hoping for cuddles and tickles fights.